I think gravity was extra heavy today. You know it's going to be a bad day when you start out with energy in the negative numbers.
That's not uncommon for me anymore. But I really needed the extra brain cells today. I had a ton of work to do and it was the kind that required maximum brainage. I managed to haul myself up to average speed by way of large doses of caffeine. But "average" just means the ground doesn't slope upwards anymore. I sure miss the days when the slope went down and the ride was easy. You never know what you've got until you don't got it anymore. I didn't value my health or my energy levels, I didn't think old age or illness would ever happen to me.
It's no good complaining. But it's a scary thought that I'm getting older, and I don't have anything to fall back on. I don't even have kids to go stay with when I become decrepit.
And how far away IS decrepit, anyway???
On the good side, I did manage to finish the project I was working on, and the code all works. Now I feel all buzzy, sitting here looking at the remains of my third double-shot of espresso, wondering how long it will be before I crash. I have to try to make to bedtime. Stopping for a nap now would totally mess up my sleep cycle. But I feel it creeping up on me, the lulling fingers of sleep reaching me through the remnants of the buzz. I am falling, fading, feeling the backlash. That which goes up, even if it's only to an artificially induced "average", will come back down.
Alas for the days of youth when I could go all night and all day on very little sleep. *yawn*
*YAWN*
Those days are definitely ... zzzzz-zzzzzz-zzzzzzzzzzz
Yeh, I can always tell when th ole allergies are kickin' up, cos I can drop off in s snap... unless it's bed time. heh
Caffeine and Bach (or Vivaldi or Handel or Schutz in a pinch) help. But, still...
I've been better since I started on the brand of vitamins Wonder Woman switched to a couple of years ago. At least now, I can fight the good fight. heh. Never placed any stock in supplements before, but now? Need all the help I can get, apparently.
Diff'rent strokes, of course.
Dig the lil Sisyphusian graphic.
:-)
Posted by: David | August 16, 2005 at 04:15 PM